No more banging on doors, begging you to let me in
And try and try with all my might
How your heart am I supposed to win?
How can I expect others to respect me
When respect to myself I first must show?
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From the first day, I was on my knees
All my pleas, your anger can never cease
The tears drip till the heart bleeds dry
Beg and beg, you are deaf to all cry.
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I dance and fail to move to your tune,
With all my energy, I will my feet to move
To all my sweet charm, you are immune,
My self worth to you I shall never prove.
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Enough with all my defensiveness,
No more proving my fabulousness,
Time to learn who God made me to be
Pleasing Him is my utmost priority
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Take ownership, assume responsibility,
Their anger isn’t your fault, you see?
No more saying yes without thinking for myself
Learning to say no without fear of anger consequence
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I am brave, I am strong
I admit I am wrong,
I can learn, I can grow
I can love you healthily
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The Dew Diary 
Interesting piece! You are worthy ❤️
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Love u sis
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There’s a lot of pain in this poem Tomini, but a lot of strength too, I’m glad that you’ve grown into yourself and know that it’s you who you have to respect first.
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Aw thank you so much Andrea, you have a very discerning eye/ear? 🙂 hmm been doing a lot of reading, learning, reflecting, growing and been conscious about myself and others esp in terms of relationships
There’s still so much more growing to do 🙂 but am glad I got back in touch with my poetry, much better than using lots of words to try and express inner and outer struggles
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Beautifully written💕 kudos
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Thank u for reading 🙂
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